Sunday Night (sigh)

I've been eating like crazy today :
2 bowls of my home made soup
1 bars of Meiji Black Chocolate 65grams
1 chocolate chips cookies 95 grams
half bar of Cheese
At least 5 toffee candies,
1 plate of Stir Fry Celery
All since 12pm.

And I still want some more.

Dudududu.....This happens every few months near my period. Woman !!


Bill is out playing pool with his friend, while I stay at home with Muffin, and try to do some online scrapbooking (I want to do the real scrapbooking once I'm in US)

It was a one fine weekend.
Staying at home alllll day

In less than a year.....

I will :


Quit my job
      I am looking forward for this one !

Prepare my wedding
     I will be getting ready to be the princess of the days, book the venue, foods, get my wedding dress made (kebaya, oh I loveeeee), get the souvenir, buy my ticket (and my family's) to the States, busy busy busy.

Getting married
     It's the BIG day !! Finally it will happen

Apply for a green card
     And find a job ASAP after it's granted

Move to USA
     Of course, after the marriage and everything

Change my name into Wynn
     It will become : Georgiana Natasha Marinska WYNN

Learn lots of things
Make new friends

New journey ahead, and I'm so excited !

Homesick

People I love :

CNY 2009, Oma's House

Christmas in the old days, with the aunts

beloved Grandma, I miss her a lot...

Ancol, August 2008.Sent some flowers for Oma

Jakarta, 2005

I miss them all..... 

I wanna go home.... :(

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Today I lost my engagement ring's diamond on an accident.
The diamond fell off I dont know here, while the ring still on my finger.
I was so sad and sort of having a bad mood in the morning.

Plus, the night before I didnt have enough sleep because of some stupid sms sent by an annoying person *sigh*

My day at the office was okay. It was busy.
In the end of the day I was so nervous because after several tracks and phone call, the DHL which I already sent out on Monday is still in HK !!! While it needs to be use tomorrow.
I'm a dead meat -____-

I don't know, but I have a feeling that tomorrow will be a hard day.
Hopefully it wont, but I am very scared and worried about it.



Another 7 full months to go.
And I will be free.
IT will be OK.

*self suggestion*

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Note, 281109
It end up by me calling my mom, telling her how stress I am, how scared I am, and I started to broke down, and sobbing.
I hang up the phone (I can't speak because of the sobbing :p), called bill asking him to come.
He came right away and I cried some more.
Thanx :)

Weeeekkkkeeeeennnnddddd ^____^

Saturday

Me and bill went to Qipulu (a cheap clothing market in SH) to get some cheap (but warm) pajamas.
It was around 1130 when we got there.
1st we bought our pajamas, 29RMB for a set of long sleeve-long pants pajamas a.k.a CHEAP !
Then we wander around and there's these guys who always offering to Bill "What do you want ?? Do you want a bag ? watches, sir sir !?!?"
1st-2nd encounter, those people aren't so pushy, but then on the 3rd guy, he IS !!
He repeat the same questions like any other people did.
We said : NO
But then this guy keep on following us, and keep on talking.
Again, we said : NO
But he didnt give up, he insisted us to go and see the stuffs that he sells (oh, they usually offer FAKE stuffs, u know, like fake LV, Abercrombie, etc)
We said no all the time, till we got really upset, And scream at him "WE DONT WANT ANYTHING !!!"
but he still following us *sigh*
Then we saw a hat store, we got in, and look for some hats, and that guy finally GO (to hell !!)

After a short time at Qipulu, we went shopping at Uniqlo....BETTER !
at least its a store. No crazy people there.
Bill bought a cool cardigan (old man style, I love!)
and I bought a belt with lots of studs... (YAY!)

And we went home
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7pm I met so and Rossy at Istanbul, a Turkish Restaurant, get a goooood dinner and watch 2012 after that.
It was nice to meet my friends !
And the movie was good too (even though the seats are BAD *ouch*)

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Sunday
Bill went to teach early morning.
I took muffin out to buy some vegetables, sharpen the knives.
Then I coook !!
I made :

1. Sayur Lodeh
2. Pisang Goreng
3. Bacan (pork with potato)
4. Telur dadar

ALL Simple food, but delicious !!

I especially love bacan, this is the first time I made it.

The recipe is :
Ingredients :

1. Pork meat
2. potato
3. red onion
4. lemon (1 is enough)
   
5. sweet soy sauce
6. cooking oil
7. salt and pepper
   

To Cook :

1. Diced the onion
2. cut pork meat into thin slices (1/4 cm width), marinade with half of lemon juice
   
3. cut potato (1/4cm width), deef fry them
4. put oil on the pan, put in the onion
5. Put pork and cook till its done, and all the juice is dry
6. put potato in, add Sweet soy sauce (kecap manis)
7. add the rest half of lemon juice
8. salt and pepper !

EAT !! :D


For sayur lodeh, dont forget to put in terasi :D
And for pisang goreng, mix the dough with CHEESE !! yummy.... :D

All the food went good !

So then I clean up the house, Sweep and mop the floor.
Do some laundries.

In the afternoon we watch Freaks and Geeks

*the family watching Freaks and Geeks*

I play Muffin.

I carry him around like a baby on my scarf ....It was really funny.
This is the pictures of muffin :

*Muffin being a toy*

Jay came,and we play Settlers of Catan.
It was fun :D

And I dress muffin up with my scarf

And everybody has a good meal
YAY !!

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It was a good weekend ! :D

what have u done in ur life ?!?1

I got this from Edison's blog and I know I just have copy-paste it !!!
I bold the things that I have done in my life!

01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink
02. Swam with dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain *I climbed Spider Gap*

04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said “I love you” and meant it
09. Hugged a tree

10. Done a striptease
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris *1999*
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Stayed up all night long, and watched the sun rise
15. Seen the Northern Lights
16. Gone to a huge sports game
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. Touched an iceberg glacier
20. Slept under the stars
21. Changed a baby’s diaper
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. Watched a meteor shower
24. Gotten drunk on champagne
25. Given more than you can afford to charity
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
28. Had a food fight
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
31. Asked out a stranger
32. Had a snowball fight
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath *When I was a kid, I put big ice on a bucket and bath my self with it*
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse *SH 2009*
41. Ridden a roller coaster
42. Hit a home run
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer *3 to be exact*
49. Visited all 50 states
50. Loved your job for all accounts
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53. Had amazing friends
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country *1999, Italy*
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe
58. Taken a road-trip
59. Rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government’s official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger’s table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan
67. Benchpressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records (cds)
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke
72. Lounged around in bed all day *and watched DVDs*
73. Posed nude in front of strangers
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to “Let’s Get It On” by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain
79. Gone to a drive-in theater
80. Done something you should regret, but don’t regret it
81. Visited the Great Wall of China *Too many times*
82. Discovered that someone who’s not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class *Taekwondo !*
88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman
89. Played DVD for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married
91. Been in a movie
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn’t have
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
95. Gotten divorced
96. Had sex at the office
97. Gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice *1999*
101. Gotten a tattoo *2009*
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs as an “expert”
105. Got flowers for no reason
106. Masturbated in a public place
107. Got so drunk you don’t remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark *Shark fin soup*
113. Had a one-night stand
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Siouxsie live
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
119. Shaved or waxed
120. Been on a cruise ship *Awani Dream LOL*
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a check
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy *Tamagotchi!!*
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your Congress person
132a. Had them write back
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134. …more than once?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived
140. Wrote articles for a large publication *Go Girl, Indonesian teenage magazine, 2009*
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a flashback
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145. Broken someone’s heart
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money on a TV game show *Krezi Gemz, TV7-Indonesia, 2004*
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100 mph
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
164. Visited more foreign countries than US states
165. Visited all 7 continents
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
169. Been a sperm or egg donor
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173. Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions
175. Gone back to school
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name
178. Petted a cockroach
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad
181. Selected one “important” author who you missed in school, and read
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them
183. …and gotten 86’ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184. Taught yourself art from scratch
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating *Shrimp*
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn’t know you
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196. Dyed your hair *RED !!, highlights, etc*

197. Been a DJ
198. Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
199. Written your own role playing game
200. Been arrested

It was fun !!
So, what have u done in ur life ?! :D

My dear Fiona

This is Me, Fiona and Onni.
We always call her Onni, because she is older than us, but she is very young at heart ! Me and Fiona love her so much, we keep in touch with our Onni frequently.

But here, I will talk about Fiona...Happy reading !

Fiona is my classmates during my study time in Beijing.
She is malaysian, and we just click since the first time we see each other.
Me and her has been separated for more than 1 year, but believe it or not, our friendship stays, and we wrote to each other often.
I miss her dearly, and I always feel close to her.

Me and Fiona, at Fragrance Hill, Beijing

This is great, considering that I only be friends (in real life) for 1 semester with her.
We declare ourself Sister, even from different blood :)

Me and my dear sister fiona almost always complain about how hard our job is.
She got a crazy boss, and backstabbing colleague, while my boss is just like hers but my colleagues are annoying LOL

Recently she is having a hard time to motivate herself to go to work. She said "Don’t feel like working. I’m dragging my feet to work every morning. I hate such feelings.. I’m trying my best not to think about it but somehow it just doesn’t seem to work. I really hope that it’s april now. so that I can tender the resignation letter.. can’t take it anymore!!"

Oh gosh, so do I !!!

I can't wait till June to be able to leave this office, and get into the new life.
What do I know about my next life ?! Nothing, but I'm positive it will be less stressful.
I just have to believe that.

I woke up every morning and think "hooray, and new day ! hope it is a good day, and pass very fast !"
Yes, I motivate myself to face each day, so days will just pass me by.

Badaling Great Wall, End of Year 2007

I am planning to visit her sometime next year,on a holiday to Malaysia, and I am looking forward for it.
She said she will take a good care of us (I believe she will!), and she will do some savings to attend my big event next year ! :D

I miss her dearly. Oh, she will be 25 soon !

This Is It - Michael Jackson

First let me start by saying that I'm not a MJ fans, I never been.
But from today on, I will adore him.

I just got back from watching This Is It, and when I watch it, was awe by how great it is.
It's a movie about the preparation of MJ's concert.

Everything was great.

MJ
He changed, obviously. He is old and when the camera show his close up face, u can tell all sorts of plastic surgery have taken place.
But seriously, he is a great and talented artist.
He participate in every bit of the rehearsal and preparation. He is such a perfectionist person, so that he ask people to stop and do it as he said. But not in an arrogant way, instead, it sounds great.
He is a great dancer. It's hard to imagine to be able to dance like him. He controlled every single move.
His voice is amazing, it change from here and there all the time.
He is a true artist.
Like the crew said, he knows his music very very very well.

The Band
Believe it or not, the lead guitar is a GIRL !!!
Yay to woman (oh yes, I am Feminist !).
That girl, her name is Orianthi, and from what I read just now, she is only 24y.o !!
She ROCKS !!! or Pop ?!
Well, she is GREAT ! Her fingers move so fast and geez, she is just that good.
She plays guitar really well, and seriously, she is a GIRL !!
A girl who play guitar really really well, and she share the stage with MJ !
That is the deepest impression about the band, the guitar girl.
But I should say that the band is great.


The dancers
They came from....all over the world.
they got interviewed, and they're all fans of MJ.
Some of them was emotionally crying during the interview.
During the audition, it was a huge group of dancers. Like the audition for So You Think You Can Dance. And MJ was there to watch and pick his dancers.
In the end, they stick with about 20 dancers or so.
They are great too.
Seriously, big man with muscles, dancing their ass off. And sexy girls dancing and walk up and down the stage ?! Woohoo !!
There was one funny scene where MJ dance with his hand on his crotch, and when the camera shoot the floor in front of the stage, some of the male dancers was having their hand on their crotch as well. They're dancing with him...Haha....(well, at least I thought it's funny, lucky me !)

The Vocal
There is 1 girl who is still in my mind till now.
Her name is Judith Hill. She is pretty and her hair is neat !!
For a short time during the movie I was thinking to get my hair like hers. But I think it will be pretty impossible.
I love her voice and she looks very unique.
Very pretty !
I remember girls, eh ?
Well, not only that.
The vocals was great too.

The director, animation, behind the scene
I should say that this what should be a great concert was prepared really really well.
The director seriously know what he is doing, and all the preparation of the animation, the what so called "movie" for the concert was great.
They are so F**kin serious about this concert.

I can't imagine on how much effort they have put to make this concert. I have an idea, of course, but how could I know for sure ?

It is so sad that this concert will never happen.
It will be the greatest concert of this century, even just to watch the preparation, I could feel the adrenalin rush, and it makes my hair stand for several times.
Call me sentimental, but I feel grateful to feel this.

This is the first movie I ever watch in my life, where when the movie was ended, no one get up from their seats. Instead, they clap their hands, stick on their seat, still on the awe phase.
Believe me, I look over the studio, and people was sitting with their face facing the screen.
And remember, this is not an action movie, or drama or horror.
It's not even a movie !!

MJ, your death is such a BIG LOST.


I adore you.



PS : My vocab is not enough to describe how I feel about this movie. Not in English or Chinese, or even in Bahasa.
I highly recommend you to watch, eventhough if you are not a fans of MJ.

3 years

It's been 3 years...
Time ran so fast !

Congratulation to us.

and more years to come..

:)

a recap

Its been a while since the last time I post anything on here.
So...here is the recap :

1. I wrote email to an important person and told him what happen with work life.
I trust him dearly so that I dare to share this with him, and ask his opinion.
According to him, they still need me, and all the bad words is just and emotional words.
Whatever it is, let's forget about it.

I decided I will stay as long as I can, and I will fall down, but I will walk again, and for sure will be able to run again. It's ok. Life been so hard the last almost 2 years. But since I'm still here, I can hold it for another 8 months.

I should remember that this job will help to find the better new job in US. The experience is all that matters.
I should be able to support myself in US.

And if I feel like I can't take it any longer, I'll quit.

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2. Halloween was fun. I didn't dress up or anything, but we went to Bill's collague's house, and there we met some other people, ate hot pot, play twister and UNO.
It was really fun !

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3. The weather drop in a blink of an eye !
Saturday I still wear shorts and t-shirt, and suddenly sunday I already wearing training pants and sweaters !
Holy god !
And today, it is even worse.
Wind blowing really hard and it hurts my face.

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4. I woke up with 2 piles of dog poop and 1 little pond of pee from Muffin.
Apparantly he got sick from the bone which we gave him last night.
He also threw up in right on our door mat just when Bill bring him back from the routine walk in the morning.
Our baby is sick.
Hope he will be fine soon.

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5. The person who "abuse" me became famous within my family (aunts and cousins)
They don't like him dearly, and they told me that I shouldn't worry or be upset,
Karma is still ruling the world :)
Thank you for your support, family !
I appreciate it.

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6. I am very thankful family and friends who supported me when I have a hard time.
mama-papa-kakak, bill, chase, thomas, danilo, matteo, devi, felice, rian, thomas rio, rosma, rossy, so, yatty, edison, maggie, nikke.
U were there to listen.
Thank you.

Love,
Tessa