DO IT ANYWAY

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building,someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness,they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, people will forget tomorrow,
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got ... anyway.

You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God,
It never was between you and them anyway..


A Poem by Mother Theresa
Catholic Nun and
Indian Spiritual Leader

(No) Doubt

I am in the state of doubting my future.

Move to US, means no job till I got green card (who knows how long they will grant me with this thing).
The plan is to go back to school, take a program which will help me to find a job.
Lets say 1 year school, and I take it fall next year (2010-2011)

If I'm lucky and get my green card right away, 2012 I can start to work. Right after school too.

What if I'm not lucky ?
Means schools is done, green card is not granted yet, then he is still at school, means im a total parasite.
Means this and that and this and that.

One thing : never have a dream which require you to depend on others.
Independent dreams, like career, house, car etc is easier to achieve.

But dream like mine will always depend on others to accomplished, at least if you live in a society like mine.

I hope, job will be find (with decent position and salary), green card will be granted, then I can start achieving my dream (mine,because he doesn't dream about it, he just want it.) I wish life will be pretty easy for us.

Excitement is vanished, at least for today...



Damn I'm worry :(

100 questions !!!

I just want to do it :D

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Chocolate milk
2. Last phone call: Bill
3. Last text message: Maobo
4. Last song you listened to: Arkarna - So Little Time
5. Last time you cried: 1 day before Bill went back to SEA

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: once
7. Been cheated on: not that I know of :p
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: nope
9. Lost someone special: yes
10. Been depressed: yes
11. Been drunk and threw up: twice

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Red
13. Pink
14. Blue


THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yes
16. Fallen out of love: nope
17. Laughed until you cried: not yet
18. Met someone who changed you: not really
19. Found out who your true friends were: i know them already !
20. Found out someone was talking about you: nope, and why should I care ?
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: of course xD
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: 95%, some of them I never met :p
23. How many kids do you want?: 2 please
24. Do you have any pets: back in Indo, yes
25. Do you want to change your name: probably only surname
26. What did you do for your last birthday: ate at Italian Restaurant with colleagues
27. What time did you wake up today: 7.10 am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleep...zzz....
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Big plan for Next summer :D
30. Last time you saw your Mother: Last Feb
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: no scar on my chest
32. What are you listening to right now : songs on my playlist
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yes
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: goods being on custom clearance
35. Most visited webpage: yahoo, google, facebook, webgaul, kompas
36. Whats your real name: Georgiana Natasha Marinska Lukman
37. Nicknames: Tessa, Echa, Dede, Mei Xiang
38. Relationship Status: Proudly Engaged ^__^
40. Male or female?: F
41. Primary School?: Sd. Maria Fransiska
42. Secondary School?: SMP Marsudirini
43. High school/college/tertiary institute?: SMU MArsudirini, UPH, BLCU
44. Hair colour: Black !
45. Long or short: long
46. Height: 158cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone? : yeah, that vampire on my imagination ! >.<
48: What do you like about yourself?: I am strong, I struggle and I won :)
49. Piercings: total of 9
50. Tattoos: not yet
51. Righty or lefty: righty

FIRSTS
52. First surgery: none
53. First piercing: when I was baby, then when I was 16-17
54. First best friend: Sissy
55. First sport you joined: Taekwondo, I love kicking ass :D
56. First vacation: Bali, 2nd grade
58. First pair of trainers: Must be Bubble Gummers

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: none
60. Drinking: none
61. I'm about to: back to work :p
62. Listening to: anything on my playlist
63. Waiting for: time to go home :D

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: oh yes pleaseeee
65. Get married? : next year
66. Career? : Anything that is possible to work part time after we have kids

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes :D
68. Hugs or kisses: hug me then kiss me please :)
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: nice arms
73. Sensitive or loud: combination of both
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: trouble maker

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: yes
77. Drank hard liquor: yes
78. Lost glasses/contacts: nope
79. Sex on first date: nope
80. Broken someone's heart: yes
82. Been arrested: nope
83. Turned someone down: yes
84. Cried when someone died: yes
85. Fallen for a friend?: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: me me me !
87. Miracles: yes
88. Love at first sight: oh yes :D
89. Heaven: yes
90. Santa Claus: nope
91. Kiss on the first date: been there, done that :D
92. Angels: yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: never
95. Did you sing today?: yes
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: not that I can think of
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: 2002, College life :D
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: None, 2008 sucks !
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: never
100. Questions answered truthfully? yes

Yucky KFC

Yesterday I ate KFC. and I remember now how GROSS it is !!!
Aaaarrrrgggghhhh......
Super oily, ugly taste chicken too....

KFC = Yucky....

Well, at least in China.

At Indo, I almost never eat KFC


No more KFC !

blah...blah...grrr..... !

It's Sunday and I totally stay at home the last 2 days.

I did cross stitching yesterday and I watch HOUSE,
today is pretty much the same thing....EXCEPT I plan to play some wii and meet my friend Ryan later in the afternoon (that if she contact me)

Tomorrow is Monday again.
Time flies, and I wish it could fly faster.
I want to skip time till my brother's wedding, then after that to next year.
I am tired of China
I wish I could move somewhere else.
Kinda felt that going back home will be better.

Apparently, next year we're planning to move forward.
Means after my contract ended, I need to go home and prepare for the paper works.
Equals, I will be at home for some time, before after that I will move out with Bill, and will meet my 1st friend in SEA, Seni.

Well....time still ticking in the same speed.
So be patient !!!!!!!

PATIENT PLEASE !!!!

PATIENT !! >.<

Synchronization-Plans-Future

Yesterday I talked with Bill, about us.
What my expectation, my fear, my hope. And also he told me what his plan is.

I am a very fast person, I love to do anything in a fast-fast way.
I hate waiting, I almost always rushing.

And he is almost the other way around.
He is more to laid back and take it one step at a time person.

We are a complete opposite, and sometimes problem occurs.

And the only way to make it work is we have to work together.
I should slow down, while he should catch up and move faster.
If he's the one who have to move faster while I'm still on my own timing, it won't work.
While if I'm the one who should stop walking till he catch up with me, it also won't work.

So that's love is, we SYNCHRONIZE
He will work hard, try 100% for everything, he will try to stay motivated and catch up with my rhyme, while I will slow down and wait patiently for him, therefore we can walk side by side, together to fight the cruel cruel world.

Bill wants me to move to USA after we're married and it's understandable, he has such a small family and it's more reasonable for us to life there instead of in Indonesia.
As a compensation(I'm sure this is not the right word, but it's the only word pops up on my brain), he will let my parents stay with us when they pay a visit or we will go to Indo for a visit.
And I will equip my family with a great internet connection, and a nice webcam so we will be able to communicate all the time. I might be able to cook while my mom is watching from the webcam ! :D

Fair enough.

Despite my fear of living abroad (this time it will be forever), I am excited to start our new life together as a family.

Plans made, time frame is set. We should go through that and hopefully everything will be going smoothly.

I still have no idea on what I might be doing over there.
Probably should learn some new skill and go back to school to be able to find a job.

I would like to work with kids, something with teaching. I feel like I'm good at it :)
Working in daycare should be pretty fun, it's kids that I'm dealing with (with their cry and dirty diapers, but they are also cute!) And this experience will be useful for our future kids (which we thought will look Chinese more than anything else, well they're 3/4 Chinese !!)

That's is how our life is working now, and I am completely happy about it.

One thing I should remember "Tuhan membuat segala sesuatu indah pada waktunya"

Money to save - to buy stuffs :D

2009 will be the year of saving and spending !
My brother's wedding will be held on October, and I have to save my money because I have to pay my dress (I promise mom to help to pay half of it), I gotta buy a nice shoes matched the dress, I gotta buy wedding present for my bro (I promised him a Wii !)

So, it's all about saving and spend it right away on a big thing.

Plus, last March I went to hospital, I spent 3000 ++ !! Thats a lot of money to be wasted. I didn't feel any benefit to get it checked, seriously !! I wish I have health insurance...Maybe I should get one !

Now I only have 3 months left to save money and I start to feel that it's a little bit tight over here.
I need at least 5000 to be able to get all that I need to buy and pay, I also need to save some to buy another ticket to fly back to Shanghai after the wedding, not counting the money that I will spend at Indo during the wedding.

Money money money !!
Life is all about working, save it then spend it !!

Next year we have a great plan...
Hope all is well for all of us.

Have a great day, people :)

I am jealous

I am jealous for those who have starts their own family, living with their lovely husband/wife and kid(s)

Not always, but most of the time I am

They might not dream as much as I do to have a family, and yet they have it.
I've been dreaming my whole life and I still don't have it (and I've tried so hard)

Life is like that.
Sometimes u get what u don't really want.
and when u want it so badly, u just can't have it.

Damn, I'm jealous -_-"

Cross-stitch-ing

Remember last time I wrote that I will knit everyday to complete my blanket project ??
Well, boohoo, I quit! I got bored.
But for the other things that I said I am committed on to, text my mom once a day, and since papa is using BB now, means I can contact him all the time !

Now I've been busy doing cross-stitch project.
I am going to make a present for my brother's wedding and If i have the time I will make another one for my parents 30th anniversary.

I've been doing it since last Thursday, and now 1/5 of my brother's is done...hahaha....long way to go !
I wish I could post some pics here, but too bad since it's blocked, I can't upload photos...
I am using proxy and the feature is limited :(

I am excited though and I hope I won't get bored too soon.
I do the project while sitting on my bed, with the table lamp and watching HOUSE at the same time.
It helps so I wont get bored with either one of them ^___^

Bill is in Seattle now, Missing him so much but he wont be here for another 3weeks.

Life ??
Life is great :D

come and go and come and go

What does he do the best ?

Read the title.

He is flying back to the states for 3 weeks, then he will come back again.

Anyway, Bill is going to Indo from Sept 29 till Oct 7, for my bro's wedding !
He will be the best man.

Isn't it cool ?? ^___^

Next I'll make u wait !

That guy is totally annoying !!!

son of a BI*CH !!

ARRRRGGGHHHH......!!!
I don't understand why on earth this company should hire him at the 1st place.
So far not that much of use for him being here.
We don't have so much things to fix yet, and he being here, have nothing to do, but un willing to do what other people ask him to do, not willing to help either, its a WASTE !!

Today we have 75 + 17 printers coming in, and tell u what, he just help as much as holding the boxes on the cart from the basement till our office.
After that ?? He left !
He sat on his desk, staring emptily to his computer, pretend like he is busy.
And instead of him helping me to move the box and the printers to warehouse, it was Chase, a skinny girl like me, who has something to do, but she pity me doing all of this hard work by myself, she come and help me !!
And she is a GIRL !!!

That stupid son of a BI*CH don't even offer any help.
From beginning till the end.

Then I ask him to test some of the printers (which is his responsibility), but he didn't do it either, till I told him 3 times, then he said "The printer wont be send today, why dont we test it tomorrow ?"
Then I said " u have nothing to do now, why dont u do it now, so tomorrow there won't be anything waiting for u to do"
He " wait till I got the payment then I test" then he left !! BAS**RD !

Yesterday he asked me for a favor to call DT to talk about his matters, I was busy taking care the warehouse to prepare space for goods which is coming today. I left it then I call DT immediately.

And now I ask him to do his RESPONSIBILITY, and he make me wait !!!!!!

ALL men in this office are like this.
Esp T and R !!
They ask me for a favor, I'll do it immediately, but if I ask them to do their responsibility, they will make me WAIT.
Imagine if I ask them for a favor.


Well, obviously I totally annoyed and don't like that scarred face.
From now on, whenever he ask me for a favor, I'll make him wait, just like he made me wait.

That son of a Bit*h !!

*gw lagi emosi!!*

what a life style !

This morning I saw pictures of a girl that I know on this popular website (very popular !)

Then, I'm sorry to say and I also know that it is none of my business, but I just can't help to feel disgusted with that kind of lifestyle.

REMEMBER : I don't hate the person, the lifestyle is what I can't take.

I pictures of girls getting drunk, hugged by all sorts of different man, and acting silly.
Skin everywhere, boobies popped out from shirt, drunk face.
I just don't like it.

I mean, who am I to judge that person ?? I ain't better than him/her.
I might did that in the past and I might do it in the future.
The fact that I'm not doing it right now, is why I talk about this.

For me, they all look very cheap, hedonism, what a life style !!

I am not against partying or drinking.
I go party and I drink too.
I got drunk twice (I count it as drunk if I threw up)

Well well...
my point is :
drink wisely,
party wisely
occasionally it's fine.
but partying 2-3times a week, its almost like u are killing your self.

Imagine what the alcohol caused to your liver
and all that cigarette smoke that u breathe into ur lung
and all the effect of staying up late all night.

I am concern for their health in the future.

But whatever, as long as they love it, as long as they are not attached to me : not my family, not my husband, not my kids...
as long as I dont need to take care of them when they're sick..
then u are free to do anything :)

Weekend !

Bill back from the forest-mountain, or whatever u call it lah !
Complete and safe :)

thats a good news for this week...

Weekend is here, happy resting time, people !

I want to go to Nanjing Rd to take some pictures, then want to meet So and go to Fuzhou Rd to buy some books (I'm a total book whore, been buying books constantly !)

Tomorrow probably gonna find a place to eat and going out with So, should clean up my house and do some laundry !

Well, that's all (so far) for today.

Will write again later when I have something to share.

Have fun, all :)

Tips-Trick ! :D

Dari KOMPAS :
Kamis, 7 Mei 2009 | 15:45 WIB

KOMPAS.com — Jangan takut, kita semua pasti akan belajar dari pengalaman. Bahkan stylist pakaian pun pernah melakukan kesalahan. Karena itu, jangan takut untuk bereksperimen dengan gaya berpakaian Anda. Bagaimana Anda tahu apa yang cocok atau tidak di tubuh Anda jika tak dicoba? Berikut adalah beberapa hal yang perlu dicek sebelum Anda keluar dari rumah, hanya untuk memastikan saja, apakah pakaian Anda sudah "aman":

VPL
Ini merupakan salah satu kebiasaan yang tak terlalu sering digubris para wanita. Kebanyakan wanita di Indonesia cenderung cuek dengan hal yang satu ini. Salah satu warna celana alternatif selain hitam adalah putih atau krem. Namun, bahayanya, ketika mengenakan celana bahan berwarna putih atau krem, sering terlihat garis bayangan celana dalam (sering disebut visible panty lines, disingkat VPL). Bagi orang Barat, hal semacam ini bisa dibilang "tindak pidana" dalam bidang fashion. Mengapa? Karena hal ini dianggap tidak sopan. Garis "bingkai" celana dalam yang terlihat dari luar sama menjijikkannya dengan melihat celana dalam yang "mengintip" keluar dari belakang (antara celana yang berpotongan rendah, dan atasan yang terlalu pendek). Mengakalinya?

Di Amerika, thong (celana dalam yang sangat minim, berupa seutas tali di bagian belakangnya) bukan lagi barang baru atau tabu. Namun, masyarakat Indonesia masih malu-malu ketika memakainya. Memakai thong seolah memberi kesan "binal" pada pemakainya sehingga untuk membicarakannya saja kita sudah geli duluan. Nah, alternatifnya, jika Anda berkesempatan jalan-jalan ke toko pakaian dalam, coba cari celana dalam yang sangat tipis, khusus untuk pakaian yang tipis atau gaun sangat halus. Pakaian dalam tipis ini dibuat sedemikian rupa, hingga pinggirannya tidak memiliki jahitan yang menebal seperti celana dalam umumnya sehingga menempel erat di tubuh.

Stocking
Jika Anda perhatikan, stocking saat ini sudah banyak digemari para wanita Indonesia. Selain melindungi kaki dari debu, membuat kaki terlihat lebih cantik, juga memberi kehangatan. Stocking juga dimaksudkan untuk membuat betis terlihat lebih cantik dan seksi, bukan untuk mempertontonkan jari jemari yang tertutup stocking. Maka, hindari mengenakan stocking dengan sepatu yang terbuka di bagian ujung. Pastikan sepatu yang Anda kenakan cukup tertutup, baik di bagian depan maupun bagian ujung.

Super matching
Mungkin sejak kecil kita diajarkan untuk memakai pakaian yang senada. Jika mengenakan tas coklat, maka sepatunya pun mesti hitam. Ini tidak salah. Namun, yang tidak enak dilihat adalah ketika seseorang mengenakan pakaian super matching, yakni senada dari ujung kepala hingga ujung kaki. Tren ini mungkin berlaku di tahun '80-an. Namun ketika tren lain yang juga booming di '80-an kembali digemari, tren super matching tidak ikut kembali. Jika memang Anda suka yang senada dan kebetulan yang ada hanyalah warna yang sama dari atas hingga bawah, cobalah cari sesuatu untuk membuat penampilan Anda lebih menarik dengan warna berbeda, misalnya ikat pinggang besar berwarna lain, atau ganti tas tangan dan riasan dengan warna yang tak terlalu senada.

Mengenakan pakaian tak sesuai ukuran
Penting untuk Anda sadari, ukuran tubuh serta ukuran pakaian yang ingin Anda kenakan. Jangan paksakan untuk mengenakan pakaian yang sedang diskon jika ukurannya tidak sama. Hanya berpikir, "nanti juga muat" atau "nanti aku akan diet, kok". Nyatanya, Anda hanya akan buang-buang uang. Sebaiknya, kenakan pakaian yang memang nyaman di tubuh, tidak membuat saluran napas atau peredaran darah Anda tersumbat. Jangan terlalu memusingkan Anda harus selalu ikut tren. Hanya karena jins Anda pas kuliah kembali menjadi tren, lalu Anda paksakan untuk memakainya. Wah, itu tak hanya akan membuat Anda seperti korban fashion, tapi juga membuat Anda tak nyaman bergerak. Tak lucu, kan jika tiba-tiba teman Anda menyapa sambil menatap timbunan lemak yang "tumpah" di bagian perut Anda? Maka, sebelum membeli pakaian, selalu pastikan Anda mencobanya di kamar pas, biasanya mereka menyediakan 3 buah cermin dari berbagai arah untuk memastikan pakaian itu pas di tubuh Anda dari berbagai sudut pandang.

Investasi pada sepatu tanpa hak yang cantik
Di Jakarta, biasanya kita terbiasa dengan lalu lintas yang sangat padat. Tak jarang, di pagi hari kita harus berjibaku dengan orang-orang dari berbagai penjuru dunia hanya untuk tiba di kantor. Berdesakan, berlarian mengejar bus, atau berlari kecil dari jalan raya menuju kantor karena sudah terlambat. Wah, bayangkan kerja keras kaki Anda yang harus melewati itu semua. Tak heran orang-orang memilih alas kaki tanpa hak untuk bertarung melawan itu semua, lalu ganti sepatu setibanya di kantor. Namun, Anda perlu perhatikan pula alas kaki yang Anda pilih untuk bertarung di jalanan itu. Kebanyakan orang sudah berinvestasi di baju kerja yang bagus, sayang kan kalau tiba-tiba di bawahnya dipasangkan dengan sandal jepit. Tak hanya membuat tampilan Anda terlihat asal, tetapi juga berbahaya. Kaki Anda bisa terluka, karena kulit terekspos begitu saja. Lebih amannya, beli sepatu semacam ballerina flat atau sepatu tertutup yang tanpa hak. Untuk kenyamanan, plus keamanan kaki Anda. Siapa tahu, ketika dalam perjalanan Anda bertemu calon klien, betapa leganya Anda sudah berinvestasi pada sepatu yang mengkomplimen penampilan.



Note :
1. VPL
totally agree, VPL is totally a no no.
thong is the answer, girls.
probably it's not comfy at the 1st time, but u will get used to it.

2.Super Matching
definitely not me :)

3. Berpakaian Tidak Sesuai Ukuran
I'd rather too big than too smal

4. Invest on a good shoes
I did !
On higheels and flats, I have nice shoes to wear.
It's a good quality (not the best), and it looks nice and its comfy :)