Taken from my FB notes :)
My English sucks, but I still type in English. Who cares ! I'm not a native speaker anyways... Hahaha... :D
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Today I went out with my mom and aunt. And when we're on the car, they're talking about the last days of my Oma.
My oma passed away almost 2 years ago,Sunday - June 24,2007.
and that time I wasn't at Jakarta. I was in Beijing.
They said that, during the last day of her life, she was very sick, and sometimes not very nice. Sometimes she can be very high temper and stubborn. And sometimes, she just cried, out of no where.
During her sick time, until her last days, I always kept in touch with my mom, and also with my brother. I got updated by them, either by sms or by phone. I know that most of the time mom is at Oma's house, taking care of her. I know she's busy, and sometimes she is just too tired to listen to my story.
Oma almost passed away on Wednesday, I received a text message saying that "Oma's condition is very very bad", I know everybody (9 childrens, some in laws and grand childrens) are already gathered at Oma's house. They said that Oma's face is already as white as a piece of paper, starts to cold. They already told her that if she is very tired, she is free to leave them. But somehow, she made it back to life. Warm again.
But on Sunday morning, I was getting ready to go to swim, and my dad called. Bill pass the phone to me, then I said "hello?"
I hear papa on the other side of the world, said "Tessa, Oma just passed away"
I dont really remember whether I cried or not. I guess I do a little, but I remember that I seat on my bed, and pray.
I am not going home. There's no need to go home since everyone will be very busy, and the cost is also not cheap. Oma's dead, me going home won't change anything about it. So I go to my computer, and started to type.
Below is my email to my dad ( u can read the translation on the bottom)
Pa....tolong donk ini di print....dan tolong dibacain waktu orang2 smuanya berkumpul...ga harus dalam acara resmi seperti doa atau apa, tapi ketika semua keluarga berkumpul...aku ga ada disana, jadi aku cuma bisa ketik ini dan minta dibacain aja...siapa aja boleh baca....kalau ada bagian yang mau di-edit or di perbaiki, silakan, tapi artinya jangan menyimpang ya....
Terus, fotonya kalau bisa tolong dicetak ya pa....ngerepotin nih....
thanx n luv,
-tessa
Selamat Tinggal, Oma....
"Tess, Oma baru aja meninggal" , Itu kalimat yang papa ucapkan ketika ia menelponku di Minggu pagi hari, 24 Juni 2007
Pikiranku melayang, mengenang omaku...Oma yang sederhana, penuh kasih sayang, sabar, sesosok Oma idaman bagi setiap cucu di dunia...
Tidak pernah sekalipun ia marah kepadaku...setiap waktu yang kulewatkan dengannya adalah saat-saat penuh cinta...Cinta seorang Oma kepada cucu-cucunya...Cinta yang begitu tulus dan hangat.
Aku akan selalu mengenang Oma sebagai pribadi yang riang, penuh cinta, dan ia selalu memaksa kami untuk makan bilamana kami datang ke rumahnya..."Tessa makan ini deh..." , "Tessa, di meja ada makanan tuh, tadi oma bikin. kamu makan gih..." atau, "Tessa hari ini mau makan apa?" Aduh Oma, aku bisa gendut deh kalau begini....Tapi tentu saja aku akan melahap segalanya yang ia siapkan, makanannya enak-enak sih.... ---> tolong bagian ini dibaca dengan nada yang jenaka... ^__^
Sejuta kenangan indah bersama Oma, dan selamanya tidak akan terlupakan...
Kini Oma sudah pergi, kembali ke pangkuan Bapa di Surga...23,5 tahun aku mengenal dia....Dan kini Ia pergi...Kembali ke kedamaian abadi, dimana tiada rasa sakit, tiada penderitaan...Kembalilah dia ke rumah Bapa yang senang, bersama dengan malaikat-malaikatNya....
Selamat Jalan, Oma....doa kami akan selalu menyertai perjalananmu...
dari cucumu yang akan selalu menyayangimu,
-Tessa-
After I typed it, I went swimming with Bill, and I remember that I could do some 20++ laps nonstop, while before I can't do 4 laps without running out of breath. Normally I'm a weak swimmer.
I remember that when I keep on swimming like crazy, Bill was there, and I feel like he never took his eyes of me, ready to help if I got cramped or what, and time to time he accompany me swimming.
I remember I didn't feel tired after I did all those laps.
In the night time I called my brother, ask him about all the updates there. He shared with me. And I felt that I didn't left behind just because I wasn't there.
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Now when we remember what happened back then, and during discussion between my aunts and relatives, they said that, when Oma wasn't very nice, she is "cutting the love line" (memutus tali kasih, inggrisnya gimana ya ?), means that she is not very nice to people, to her kids, so that her kids will not like her a little bit, so it won't be too hard for them to let her go.
When she cried out of nowhere, means she is sad, she knows that she won't have so much time to live anymore.
And turns out that things like this happened to some of our relatives whose parents already passed away.
Believe it or not, But I know or at least it happens to my mom, to my aunts...
Today we talk about her, and I miss her.
Since I wasn't there, sometimes I forgot that she passed away already.
Well, she is dead, but I know that she will always be there inside my heart.
I miss miss her. I will never see her again whenever I go to her house.
I missss her....
Translation of my email to papa :
Pa, please print this out, and read it when everyone is gathering together. It doesn't have to be in a formal occasion like praying time or something like that, but when our family are all there. I am not there, so I can only type this and and I wish this to be read. Anyone can read this, if there were any parts that u want to edit, thats fine, but don't change the meaning.
And please print out the photo as well. Sorry for the trouble.
Thanx and love,
Tessa
This is to be read :
"Tess, oma just passed away, thats the sentence that papa said when he called me on Sunday morning, June 24, 2007.
My minf flew, thinking about Oma. A modest and simple Oma, full with love, patience, a kind of grandma everyone could ever wish for.
She never mad at me, not even onece. Everytime that I shared with her is a lovely time. A love from grandma to her grandchildrens. A sincere and warm love.
I will always remember Oma as a cheerful, full of love person. She always asked us to eat whenever we come over to her house. "Tessa, eat this thing, ok ?" "Tessa, there's food in the table, oma just cooked it, u should eat it, ok ?" or "Tessa, what do u want to eat today ?"
Oh oma, i can get fat so fast if u kept on doing this ! But of course I will eat all of these food which she prepared, it tastes good ! ---> please read this part with a funny tone.
Millions of good memory with Oma, and I will never forget.
Now Oma has gone, back to heaven, together with God. I've know her for 23,5 years, and now she's not here anymore.
Back to the eternity, where there's no pain, no suffer. She go back to the happy place with God and all the angels.
So long, Oma, our prayers will always be with you.
From ur grand daugther who will always love you,
-Tessa-
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