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Sunday, July 19, 2009

What happened lately




What happened lately with my life....
1. July 11
Tattoed the back of my neck with an angel (only outline with black ink) :D
Finallllyyyy !!! Yay !
It looks cool :)




2. July 17
Bomb blast at JW Marriot and Ritz Carlton Indonesia
which made me feel really sad.
Another bomb !
Stupid terrorrist !
MEAN !!


3. July 18-19
Observing Rossy's class for English teaching part time job, which will start next week !
Teach english for pre-school kids.
Yay !
I am excited to start teaching :D

Great, eh ?! :D

Thursday, July 9, 2009

beauty sweet dream....

I remember I mention before on how much I want to have kids.
I talk about it a lot, I wrote it, I did day-dream about it, but I never dream about it during my sleep.
Until today :)

I dream about me being pregnant, walking in the park with Maria (yes, that best friend of mine)
She was pregnant too, but we're almost in the same size. I saw my self not getting so much weight, I just had a round belly on me, and yeah, of course I do look a little bit chubbier (or else it would look scary !!)

We were walking in the park and I told Maria that I feel that I need to deliver this baby.
So we walked to the closest hospital, which is located just in the end of the park (welcome to dream world!), then
we got in, I registered my name, and I am sitting on the bathtub, full with warm water and preparing to deliver my beautiful baby. Maria was there beside me, holding my hand. She called Bill already and he's still on the way.

I started to push, and like in the beautiful world of dream, the baby came out !!!
Came out in the tub, in the water, smiling....
I take her (yeah its a girl !) out of the water, and she started to cry, the midwife cut the cord while the nurse took out the plug to drain the bath tub.

After she cried for a little bit, she looked at me, and that time Bill arrive.
She smiled at me, Maria was crying with joy and Bill had a super big smile on his face.

She is our first baby, and we name her Adhenia Christabelle Wynn (oh yeah, Bill hates that Christabelle name !, but he loves Adhenia ---> this is for real)

It was the most beautiful dream I've ever had. It feels so real and I can even remember about it so clearly.

Nice !

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

I let my self down.... -__-"

Realized that I am easily upset by myself.
If I did small mistake at work, I will feel guilty and sad about it.
And it will bother my brain for quite a while.
I let myself down.

Perfectionist ?

I don't think so.
Because I never been a perfectionist, or I think I am not a perfectionist

Today I let myself down again.
For a mistake which unfortunately I can't even re-call.
I thought I did, but then I didn't
What happened ??
I don't even have the slightest memory regarding this matter.

I was scared, panicked, frustrated, sad, and a bit depressed.
How could I ??

sob sob sob....

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

My 1st Article on Go Girl !

I wrote and article
About place to hang out in Shanghai,
and it's on Today's Go Girl Magazine, Indonesia !

Yipeeee :D

It has a little picture of me.
BUT some of the picture (The Bund, Pearl Market and Shanghai Zoo) wasn't mine.

The others are mine :D

I am happy :D

My 1st article !!!
Yipeeee....!


Affirmation !!

Anyone ever heard about Affirmation ??
I did, my mom taught me this, when I was on the low(est) point of my life at that time.
I constantly feel scared and I cried all the time.
I was stressed for some reasons :p

She taught me to say these affirmations everyday when I woke up :
Today I am Happy
Today I am healthy
Today God is with me
Today is a good day
Today I am strong
Today I am productive
and so on...
and it works !

Read more below :


The Power of Affirmation. An article about self talk and autosuggestion.



We hypnotize ourselves each day of our lives with our thoughts and self talk, but is it for winning or losing?



An affirmation is a repeated statement that is either spoken aloud, thought or written down. Affirmations can dramatically alter the direction of our life through the programming of our beliefs, self-talk and self concepts.

We use self-talk affirmations all the time in our heads, but unfortunately mostly negative ones. e.g.

"I can't ..."; "I feel so guilty ..."; "I never have enough ..."; "I hate ..."; and so on.

Humans are self programming robots! We do as we think ... affirmations are our instructions.

Do you use negative affirmations like "I can't afford it", "I feel ill" or "I'm hopeless with money"?

Do you utter "Oh No! I'm fat!" to yourself each time you look in the mirror?

Negative affirmations are just as powerful as positive affirmations.

Personal power begins with modifying our self talk from negative to positive affirmations.



To choose the best affirmations we must firstly get in touch with EXACTLY what it is we want ... Success, Love, Acknowledgment? What does that look like to you? Weight Loss, Money, A Relationship, Forgiveness?

The next important step is to establish what obstacles prevent your desire from being a reality now.

Say for example you desired a new car! What holds you back from having one right now? Money? What "self talk" holds you back from having money? Opportunities? Skills? Do you believe you are lazy, too ill, a poor financial manager or simply don't deserve money?

We begin by creating affirmations that boldly and emotionally state what we want as though we have the goal right now ...e.g.

I earn $ ............ per annum right now.

I am worthy of receiving everything I desire.

I am respected and admired by everybody I meet
I have an abundance of energy and health right now.

I am feeling healthier every day.
I weigh ...........kg/lbs right now.

As we write or speak our affirmations, we encourage our mind to visualize what the accomplished goal will look like.



Affirmations help us to achieve great things in our work; have wonderful relationships; forgive ourselves; become healthy; forgive others; build confidence; release old habits and create new ones.

A powerful way to use affirmations is to write them down.


Try writing ten (10) affirmations thirty-five (35) times, twice a day, for seven (7) consecutive days and witness the extraordinary transformations that occur.



It Takes 21 Days To Form a Habit

When you are convinced about the power of affirmation - why not record as many of them as you like [in your voice] on CD or your MP3 Player to listen to. For the best results, affirmations should be listened to twice a day for twenty-one (21) consecutive days in an uninterrupted environment.

It has been suggested the BEST time to listen to autosuggestion is when you are in "Alpha", i.e. the highly relaxed state which occurs just before sleep. This is also the meditation state.

Important Note! Affirmations must be achievable and honest!

If your goal cannot bring you happiness, love and freedom, don't even bother with affirming ... because your unconscious self will know better. Make your goals realistic to now, and you will be able to upgrade as your goals become achievements!



What you focus upon will grow!

Do not worry too much on "how" the goal will be achieved, only be concerned to have the desire and to be able to "see" the end result in your minds eye.

Consider your affirmations as important as brushing your teeth.

Taken from : http://www.splash.net.au/articles/affirmation.html