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Friday, January 29, 2010

Today and A Year Ago

Today I got one of my wisdom teeth taken out.
At clinic near my apartment.
It cost only 100RMB !! very cheap really.

First the doctor inject local anesthesia on my cheek, then my cheek, and lips and half of my tongue got numbed.
Then he crack my tooth, and took out my tooth !!
It was torn into 2 pieces !
It wasnt that hurts, the worst pain was when the nurse bang the hammer onto the tools to crack my tooth.
That was HURTS !!!

And now, the anesthesia started to gone, and i feel my head hurts, and my gum, where my old tooth were used to be, is hurts.

It is strange to see a big hole on ur gum


and, TODAY , we've been engaged for 1 year !!

The story can be read below (credit to Bill)

When??

I got seasick as soon as we hit the unprotected waters on the way to Lembongan. The rocking catamaran pitched violently and I was grateful that our smaller original boat, The Aristocat (a sailing catamaran) was down for repairs that day. But perhaps it was more than my lack of sea legs which had me feeling queasy, nauseous and more than a little anxious. I had decided that I would ask Tessa to marry me that day. It's not that I was seriously scared she would reject me (although the thought had crossed my mind), it was the magnitude of the request and the life-altering consequences which had me more than a little flustered.

We arrived and immediately I spotted the perfect place to propose, a sheltered cove with only one other couple on it. The water was so clear that you could see the boundaries between coral and sand. We quickly hiked over to the spot and promptly rushed headlong into the crashing surf. There was no break so the waves were breaking right on shore, often so hard that Tessa would be knocked down and rolled around, all the while giggling uncontrollably with that silly grin she gets when she can't contain the joy any longer.
The Beach where he proposed

What a perfect place and time to do it! Yet still something held me back, again not a fear of rejection, but a desire to do it at the absolute right time. Many perfect moments came and gone, sitting and resting under the shade of a palm tree or in the water during a calm spell. But still all I could do was open my mouth and nothing came out.

Until we were laying in the sand freshly worn out after a thorough thrashing by the surf. Why I chose this time I still am not sure. We were exhausted, over stimulated and distracted by the waves and surroundings, and fully exposed to the brutal sun. I don't want it to sound like this was the wrong time to do it, but looking back I'm not sure what motivated me at that moment to do it. Recalling the instant before, it was much like the rush you get standing on the edge of a high dive, or before jumping into a lake you know is freezing cold. You stop thinking and start doing..

So I did, I rolled around onto her legs in a sort of half-kneeling, half pleading stance and just let it out: Tessa, will you marry me? (Here is where it gets interesting), Response: What? / again / Will you marry me? / You are joking! / I'm being serious, will you marry me? / (drumroll here, at this point its clear I am not kidding and expecting the words to fall from her mouth.../ Response: When? / What? I don't know...soon. / (smiling, but still looking dead serious) But when?? / I look away for a moment here (i'm completely flustered) , and say, that doesn't matter, will you are won't you marry me? / I do! / (smile) / Or I mean Yes!. At this point I'm pretty sure she kept on pressing the when part. And for all my confidence and reluctance and rehearsing this moment I didn't have an answer! But she said yes and thats all that matters.


It might have been the massive amounts of salt water or the direct tropical sun, but I'm fairly sure that the tears forming in the creases of her eyes were from emotion, equal parts happiness and desparation to know the exact date of our wedding. (not coincidentally I spent today with her dad and we talked of his admirable dedication to punctuality, life father like daughter).

The rest of the day was sort of a blur: I remember we ate delicious food, eyed each other in a slightly different light, and snorkeled on top of a big coral reef.

I do remember, quite vividly, that I felt perfectly fine and at ease on the choppy sailing back to Bali.

Monday, January 25, 2010

I want !!!!!

I want this Necklace !! so bad
Well, doesn't mean to be that model, but at least things like this

with ART written on it

ART = Adri, Rio, Tanty-Tessa
the whole family in 1 Word

I love !!!!

Names

I love the name Adenia
ever since I was in the 3rd grade of junior highschool.
Thing is, the nick name is Nia, it should be read as Nee-Ya or N I A (Indo's abc)

but in US people will read it differently, it will be Naya !
ARRRRGGGGHHHHH.......Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooo  !!
Definitely can't be NAYA !

It should be Nia Nia Nia.

Oh and I love the name Maharani as well :)

I love girls name !

Can't think of any boy's name....

I would like our kids to have an English-Indonesian mixed name :)
YAYA !

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Dear silly one...

Dear Silly one,
I miss you....


After you, me and Weiwei swam on that dirty river with little duck, PanAn June 2007

 
Our dark skin after crazy summer adventures, Seattle August 2007



Camping trip Port Angeles, Oct 2008


Even though I said I don't , I actually miss you  (_ _")


See you next Sunday !

Saturday, January 23, 2010

I'm not alone

I was looking into my friend's photo album on FS, she is my schoolmates since elementary-highschool, and now she is residing in Netherland, and have a NL-ers BF (or fiance??).
And I thought "I'm not alone!"  LOL

All this time of course I know that I'm not the only person who date someone from different nationality, cultures, language, etc.
But that's just how my strange mind works, suddenly the "I'm not alone" thought just popped out into me.

I realize that we have fall and chose to be in love with this "alien!"....
We might be getting married with these foreigners, most likely to move to their country, and spend the rest of our life with them forever.
We will always be far away from our family !
Oh lala....

But I think we know something, this thought just show up when I took a shower back in 2008,

We came from two different countries
We live in two different cultures

We speak in two different languages
But we share one thing in common
The thing called LOVE

Monday, January 18, 2010

Empty house

I got back home to an empty apartment.
Only Muffin barks remind me of a living thing.

The apartment feels too quiet
too cold
too neat
too clean

I like it messy
I like it noisy
I like it a little bit dirty
I like it when u're here


I miss you...... !!!!!!!!



*Did you left any note for me ?? *   @__@

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Highschool Life is FUN !!


Raymond-Sentio-Feri-Dhana-Yanto (+)-Arie-Ason-Denni
Frenki-Me-Erik
Kemang Pratama 2001

Me-Devi-Maria
Felice
Kemang Pratama 2002
Meet THE BLAST !!
They are my group of friends when I was in high school, its all started when Frenki-Maria got together, followed by Devi-Sentio, and since Me and Felice are friends with Maria and Devi, and Frenki-Sentio are friends with the rest of the boys, we became Friends.

With them I had a great time during highschool.
Most of the time we went out together, like to malls, birthdays (lots of it), and to Puncak !
The main group was : 4 girls and the boys except Yanto(+)-Arie and Dhana.

We also went swimming together at my neighborhood's sports club, and I remember we always had so 
muchhhh fun 

Recently I saw their (the boys) pictures at Bali. I miss them so.
I wish I (and the girls) could go with them, but I think it remains as dream, since Maria and Devi are married, and NOT with their bf on this pictures, and Devi have 1 daughter already.
Felice is in Germany.
And I, oh I'm the happy go lucky one ! ^___^


Felice and Me might still be able to go with the boys, traveling and have some fun.
The question is WHEN ???
Hahaha....


We'll see, maybe someday :)


Miss BLAST
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Below is some pictures from highschool,
not with BLAST, buy I'll give you a little explanation on the caption

This is Saturday at 2E, Marsudirini High School. We have to wear either checkers print or stripes combined with our uniform's skirt/pants. This class is the BEST class EVER ! We're so naughty, we made troubles, but we bond really tight.
We do things together, got punished together.
Since Junior high - High school I'm a big fans of Baby G :D

2E during the weekdays, after school. We have to place our chair on top of our desk, so it will be easier for the cleaner to clean the class room. As you can see, the girl's top uniform come in 2 colors, grey and basic white. For the skirts, we have to wear white on Monday, while Tue-Sat is Grey. For the boys, the top is basic white, with White pants on Mon, and Dark Green from Tue-Sat

I LOVE uniform :)

Class pictures of 2E

I think that year we made the BEST class pictures ever. Everyone looks very relaxed and comfy here.
Our class teacher was Pak Heru.


Below are some other pictures during random time of high school

I think this is 2E's gathering when we're in the 3rd grade.

2E's farewell trip to Vila Kompas, Puncak, June 2001


3rd grade's classmates mixed with BLAST
 I LOVE high school, it was sooooo much fun and I miss it sooo much !

Sunday, January 10, 2010

F.O.B

So this summer, if everything is well, I will be moving to US.

I will be a Fresh off the Boat (FOB), which according to Wikipedia means :
Fresh off the boat (or "F.O.B.") is a phrase used to describe immigrants that have arrived from a foreign nation and have not yet assimilated to the host nation's culture, language, and behavior

Yes yes, with my -I'm-so-cute a.k.a sok imut way of dressing (printed shirts, monkey hat )
and my strange yet very Indonesian English accent which only Bill can 95% understand)

Like if I don't say anything, I might not be looked so FOB (that if I only wear a plain shirt and jeans). 
But once I open my mouth, and people hear the way I speak, either the accent or the way I arrange my wordings, it is obviously I'm a FOB.

Am I worry ?
Yeah, a little (no, actually a LOT !!)

What if people don't understand what I'm about to say ?
What if they laugh at me because of my accent ?
What if they thought I'm somewhat retarded ?
 *ouch !*

Bill said it won't happen, because people in US are used to immigrant.
But still, even he laughed at me when I pronounce something wrong, like how I pronounce Avocado before.  T___T"


I can speak English, it's just not that great....


That's why among foreign friends (especially if they're American-British-Australian, because they're native English speakers) I will speak less, a little bit worry, I suppose 
*try to imagine me not talking !!!!! such a chirpy bird as I am !*

We'll see how it is next summer. 
Hopefully not as worrying *read : scary* as I thought it would be.


And I might apply to a school if I can't get a job rightaway.

We'll see.


It's just the thought of the day....

 


Friday, January 8, 2010

We're Bookworm




Ever since the book seller near our house offer special price for RMB25/500gr of English Books, we are (read : Me) buying books like mad !!

In the past 3 weeks I think we've bought 30 new books in total.

And we're only 2 person, in this tiny apartments, and owned at least 130 books !! (I just counted, and I stopped at 112, and I saw there are still stack of books behind my purse, and I'm too lazy to get up and count)

We read most of them, but we have so many new books waiting to read.

I read his books, he never really read my books (I have some books in Bahasa, and my English books collection is not quite fit onto his taste), and I read so much faster than him.

I believe in our future house, we will have so many books, and we always talk how we want to have our own library, racks of books.

Conversation



They gave me 2 months to find another job

Oh, thats not bad. I mean, you should start to ask people who might be able to help you. And in this 2 months, you should work hard to show that you're good.

I know. She asked. I told her I'll explain when we meet, she still insisted to know.

Then tell her, but also she shouldn't get upset first, tell her you will share the details when you meet her.

I know. She will be upset though.

Being upset wont change anything. Instead, she should use that anger to support you.

I know. But she will make me feel guilty about this. She dont need to do that, I already feel guilty.

Then you shouldn't feel bad about it ! If you know she is the person who give pressure, then you should fight. You should use the guilty feeling as a motivation to proof to YOURSELF and to her, that you are great.

What else can I do, it is her character.

How could you say that it is a character ? And why does she wants to live with that kind of character ?! She can change it if she wants ! This is not something that we should just accept.
It's just like if you are a lazy person, then you will just accept it as a character of a person ?


--If that's your way of thinking, then will you grow up ? When will you stand up for yourself ?
You don't give up or accept when life/people treating you badly.
You FIGHT !--

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

the news

Just got a shocking news from home.
And today all my energy and mind got all sucked to this news.
Whatever it is, hopefully it is just for the best.
I love you brother.

UPDATE
It's all end well.
Hope it is forever.
All the best.

I love family

Saturday, January 2, 2010

What's on 2010 ?!

Here are the list of things to look forward in 2010 :
  1. Chinese New Year
  2. Interview for the Fiancee Visa
  3. Leave the office for good
  4. Going back to Indonesia
  5. Seni's baby and finally meet Seni
  6. Wedding preparation (get to choose my wedding gown...oh yeah !)
  7. Learn how to sew with mom at her new sewing room (which used to be my bro's bedroom)
  8. Getting together with my family for the longest time since the past 4 years.
  9. Departure to Seattle
  10. My family in Seattle, would love to take them around the city, and on a day hike.
  11. Wedding in Seattle
  12. New family members
  13. New life and new experience, get to know new places and new friends
  14. 1st Thanksgiving
  15. Hiking
  16. Christmas
  17. Wedding at Indo
Instead of lots of things I look forward to, there are things which will be hard to leave behind in Indonesia. My family and friends are all there. I will miss them heaps.

But technology is good now, and I'm sure I should be able to talk with my parents (family) often, and we will work hard to, so that I can be go home or take my family to US for a long holiday.

Life should be good.
Thats just how it should be.

What are you looking for in 2010 ?

Friday, January 1, 2010

2009 a Recap

Private Life
I started 2009 by having a party with So, Rossy and Stefan at Luna, Xintiandi Area Shanghai.
With hundreds of text messages, and some phone calls, and glasses of drinks, it was FUN.
I end up drunk and threw up at Luna's toilet, stand in the queue waiting for taxi for 2 hours with So, Stefan, Rossy and Lidia.

Here's some pictures :

So-Me-Rossy
 
Lidia-Stefan-Me-Rossy

Then in the end of January I went home, and Bill came to visit, I introduced Bill to my big family on the CNY, we got lots of Hongbao, and here is some pictures :

Bill and The Big Family (I took the picture)

Then we went to Jogjakarta and Bali with my family (mom and Dad) to have some relaxing holidays
In Jogja, we climbed the Borobudur Temple when its raining, while mom is waiting in the car, because she dont want to get wet



Bill-Me at Borobudur, bare feeted

Me and My super hero parents !!

And some from Bali


Me and the dress which I love so much because its so light and cool. 


Watch Barong Dance


On a cliff at Nusa Lembongan Island


The beach where he proposed (I ENGAGED !!)


Face after engaged !


Dreamland Beach, Bali
I got rolled in the wave, and end up with a little bit bruised back :)


Ate delicious Padang Food afterwards
See I got tanned !!
 
July 11th, 2009, I got myself a Tattoo !!!!!
I got it at Shanghai, Maoming Rd, with Irene accompany me.
I've always wanted a tattoo, and I've spent soooooo much time to think whether I should get it or not.
I finally did.
Here it is :

 
my 1st tattoo (more to come ?!?!)
It is a fairy (even though lots of people see it as a butterfly... T__T)
My parents been so cool about it, they heard me talking about tattoo since I was in the college :p

Life been okay for the most part of my private life, and we head back to Indonesia again on the end of September, and this time is for my Big Bro's Wedding



 Fitting time


Wrapping some presents (that messy bedroom is MINE !!)


Meeting some friends :)

Our New Family :)


At the wedding party 

And we got an addition in our little family, Muffin


 

We celebrate our 3 years anniversary, and My Birthday and Christmas together.
At the end of the year I wasn't so healthy. I catched a bad cold, went to doctor on Christmas day, and she told me to get a 3 days Iv. So I did. My first IV ever, for a cold !!!!



Working Life
SUCKS ! It made me drop more tears than ever before.
So much more responsibility, more things to do, and more scolded.
But in the other part, my relationship with our partner's is getting better.
I made friends with Danilo and Matteo,
I called the export department more, and they get to know my voice now! :D
In the end of the year I made a mistake which drive me crazy and I almost lost my sanity.
Everything settled now and I will just do better.

I went to Beijing to take care of the exhibition, and got some fun time with Matteo and Danilo when we're covered in the dust to see the booth progressing, and plus Alberto when we went to the electronic market !
And Yeah, I saw sex action life, and I heard them too !
Woohoo !!!  T___T"





Books
It is important to put books here, because I love reading.
This Year I have read :
1. The Cell by Stephen King
2. Pillars of the Earth by Ken Follet
3. Diary of Wimpy Kid (1-4) by I forgot and Lazy to find out (Dison, help me!!). The 1st 3 books has been given to Edison, and 4th is coming (note  that down, son !)
4. Ciao Italia by Gama Hariono
5. Botchan by Natsume Soseki
6. Anne of The Green Gables by Lucy M Montgomery
7. Anne of The Avonlea by Lucy M Montgomery
8. Anne of the Island by Lucy M Montgomery
9. The Little Princess by Frances Hodgson Burtnett
10. Angela's Ashes by Frank McCourt
11. Marley and Me by John Grogan
12. Getting Rid of Matthew by Jane Fallon
13. Secret Diary of a Call Girl by Anonymous
14. A Short History of Tractors in Ukrainian by Marina Lewycka
15. Trading Up by Candace Bushel
16. Shopaholic Takes Manhattan by Sophie Kinsella
17. Dress Your Family in Corduroy and Denim by David Sedaris
18. The Mysterious Benedict Society by Treton Lee Stewart
19. The Road by Cormac McCarthy
20. Dari Soekarno sampai SBY Intrik dan Lobi Politik Para Penguasa by Tjipta Lesmana
21. Bumi Manusia by Pramoedya Ananta Toer
22. Eat, Pray and Love by Elizabeth Gilbert
23. The Secret Life of Bees by Sue Monk Kidd
24. Dead Until Dark by Charlaine Harris
25. Twilight by Stephanie Meyer
26. New Moon by Stephanie Meyer
27. Eclipse by Stephanie Meyer
28. Breaking Dawn by Stephanie Meyer
29. The Star of Kazan by Eva Ibbotson
30. Everyone Worth Knowing by Lauren Weisberger
31. By The Shores of Silver Lake by Laura Ingalls Wilder
32. The Mermaid Chair by Sue Monk Kidd
33. The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch

Those in Italic are books which I think is reallllllyyyyy goooodddd....

I am sure I read more books, but I can't remember since they're not here (I brought some books back to Indonesia to keep or to give to Edison)
Books I read is ranging from the lame books (chicklit), and cool books (those which won award ! hahaha.... :p )
I need chicklit  every once in a time, because they're so easy and predictable, so you can just simply read without thinking. A good way to entertain yourself and idling your brain. HA !


But on December 2009, the book seller near our house sells book for 25RMB/500gram. So far I have spent  about 200 RMB (It is so cheap, even at Indo or US, u can't buy books that CHEAP !!)
and I am currently reading few books at the same time, they are :
1. The World Without End by Ken Follet (1000 pages, small font, heavy for my little hand !)
2. A Year Without Made In China by Sara Bongiorni

And behind that, I still have like another books waiting for me to read, they are :

1. The Famished Road by Ben Okri
2. The Gathering by Anne Enright
3. Charlotte's Web by E.B White
4. Love in the time of Cholera by Gabriel Garcia Marquez
5. Midnight's Children by Salman Rusdie
6. The catcher in the Rye by J.D Salinger
7. The Little Prince by Antonine De Saint Exupery
8. Chasing Harry Winston by Lauren Weisberger
9. The Color Purple by Alice Walker
10. The Kabul Beauty School by Deborah Rodriguez
11. The Time Traveller's Wife by Audrey Niffeneger (Bill's purchase)

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All in all, 2009 is an ok year.
I give it 6,5 out of 10.
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HAPPY NEW YEAR, people !!!